formyboys--trust me--he doesn't have a perfect little life. It may look like it to you--from the outside. A person who has his behaviors is not an actualized person. The only satisfying "revenge"--if you can call it that--is to live well. I have found this out myself!!!!!
How you are feeling is human and it is real (all feelings are real). It is just that it doesn't have to feel this way forever...LOL. You have more healing to do---and you will recognize the healing when the past is no longer mucking up your future.
You are doing well, girl!!!!!!!!
dandylion
P.S. I'll give you a confession of mine--After a painful break-up in the past (I was a hot mess for quite a while), I drew great revengeful comfort by wishing that he would go bald, develop a huge gut, and suffer from very premature sexual dysfunctions.
