I know for a while I've tried to find any shred of hope that it wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. It's always the same time of day (10pm-midnight or so), it's always the same type of hard liquor, it's always the same amount (or nearly). So how could it be a problem if it seemed so "controlled"? But when his nightly "couple of drinks to relax" was equivalent to about 8-10 1.5oz shots of hard alcohol (which would put most people under the table), then his "ramp it up a little with the boys" was clearly more than that.
Ugh. I hate alcohol. I love him. I wish the two didn't like each other so much.