I'm not enough, and never will be.
BrokenInPieces, none of us who love an alcoholic or addict can ever be enough. It is not you; it is all of us.
It is heart-breaking, and most of us here have felt the pain and loss that you are describing.
No one can ever fill the hole inside an addict/alcoholic that is burnt there by their drug of choice which then demands, insatiably, to be filled.
No one can do that for anyone.
We are here to comfort you, and as we do that, we comfort ourselves.
I am so sorry for your loss, for my loss, for all of our losses.
ShootingStar1