Thank you all for taking the time to respond to my post. I am so incredibly sad - and know I will be for some time. I think of our plans for this weekend, that I am no longer welcome to. Our plans for the holidays, that will never happen. The tickets I bought just a week ago to a show we wanted to see, that now we won't. And I think of how much it hurts that the one person who could take away my pain is the one causing it.
I'm not enough, and never will be.