You're completely right. That's why I've written all of this down. I've re-read it at least ten times today. I also called my sister today and told her my plan, so that she can help me stick to it. I know how crazy it all sounds, but looking at it in black-and-white is helping. The other day, she told me about how her friend was attacked by her estranged husband, and all of the craziness, and it hit me how insane it is that she's trying to make it work with him...which led me to thinking about how insane it is that I've been doing the same.