thanks guys. it doesn't make it easier when you realize today is not only your anniversary, but it was one year ago yesterday he was released from treatment and we had such hope. Little did we know then how it would end up. The counsellor I've been seeing though had a "not shocked" look on her face when I told her how bad he had relapsed and the name of the treatment centre he went to. Apparently their relapse rate is quite high. Granted the relapse is on him, but if you're not learning the proper tools, do you really learn how to cope?