To be honest I never wanted to quit. If I could have carried on drinking without the anxiety, insomnia, regrets, shame, damage to my oesophagus, throwing up, probable marriage break up etc etc...well I'm positive I would still be doing it.
I just reached that point when I didn't want to waste one more weekend curled up in pain and hungover.
To stop all those negatives the only option was to quit completely. I thought it was a bit drastic, but I couldn't moderate so there it was. To continue or quit completely.
Really pleased I chose the latter. You will be too.