There's two things going through my head right now- really my only two real options regarding my current situation... I can either withdrawal from my classes with no penalty right now, and probably won't get help for my addiction; or I can take a medical withdrawal, which will hold me accountable and require I attend some sort of treatment in order to come back to school.
A part of me keeps saying just drop out and I'll get help later, but I know that's ********. The other half of me just thinks about how ****** it's going to be not drinking. I can't imagine a life without alcohol. The only way I can find myself realistically going through detox is if I take the medical withdrawal, but it's hard for me to make that decision. I keep saying I will just withdrawal and detox later, but I know that probably won't happen on my own accord.