I think rthere a very big leap between knowing we should quit and accepting we should quit.
I was still looking for a way to drink and not have the bad stuff happen right up until my last drink.
If not for the fact that last drink nearly killed me, I might still be looking for a way to have my cake and eat it too...who knows?
All I can say is I look back now at all the risks I took and the years I wasted and I wish I'd done this years earlier - it's a common refrain.
Drink on and things will get worse - have no doubt. It;s a choice between quitting now when you want to and coming out relatively unscathed...or quitting later when you have to, and maybe losing everything...
some people never get the chance to make that choice and quit, UQ.
This stuff kills - it can be the difference of an instant - a bad decision, a drink too far, an organ failing...
I've lost some good friends.
I wish I could convey this too you in a more effective manner, but that's all I got.
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