Originally Posted by
ZenMe 
If I remember right one of the big takeaways for me was by suppressing vulnerability we also suppress creativity, inspiration and drive.
Yes!! This too...I don't know how to explain it but the video was just a lightbulb to me on how living in active addiction was making my life just a chore, a life of disappointment with no joy or love. And both addicts and codependents like to numb vulnerability.
Before my XAH I was deeply involved in creative writing, I had started a novel even. During the last four years of his spiral down before I left I quit writing because I had no inspiration. I was constantly weighted down (like being underwater) just existing in survival mode but not really living. I had no drive and no inspiration.
It seems so clear now but when I was lost in the thick of it it seemed like he was "everything" and I needed to do it for "love"...wow....I guess that's what this disease does to us...it hits at the core of our souls, our vulnerability.