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I enjoyed drinking and using. If I could do it recreationally I would still be doing it. I never had hangovers - they went away towards the later stages. I had some amazing experiences with celebs, a Prince, and several Sr. Execs at Fortune 500 companies. The money, clubs, bars, women were fun times. What I did not like was that I felt tired all the time and could never sleep. I hated hiding things from my wife. I felt like a zombie - envied for what I had on the outside but dead inside. Its bc of these things and the fear of loosing everything I have worked so hard to build that I chose to stop.
There was no real pain and I think for others at the meeting that are in much worse financial shape or have lost marriages, kids, houses etc they want me to feel their pain. But I don't. I can empathize to the best of my ability but their destruction helps provide strength to me bc the fear of becoming like them is keeping me sober.
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Goodness this is me to a tee. How interesting. Except I could get a hangover with the best of them. Funny I am also involved heavily in engineering and mechanical design work.