jdooner, one thing I am very greatful to read is ya DIDNT run for a a drink. yup, the thought may have come up, but ya didn't act on it!! good on ya!!
im guessin yer pretty early in the recovery process. them thoughts of running for a bottle can come up. I can remember quite a few instances where them thoughts would come up, but thank God I didn't completely destroy my memory and remembered how good that didn't work!
metings like that happen. don't let it stop ya from the help ya want. some day you'll be able to use the experience to help someone else.