The last two posters make a great point.
I don't think there's much point in telling you you're not ready jvice - if you're anything like I was, there's a part of you that loves to hear that.
I'm not clairvoyant - I have no idea whether you're ready or not - but I think the fact you;re hanging around here means *something*.
I hope people will share with you some of the positive aspects of recovery.
I like being a man who I can look at in the eyes in the mirror. I expect you'd like that too.
I was the lowest of the low all day everyday, stumble around the neighbourhood drunk. I was one rent cheque away from being homeless.
It took a lot of effort, a lot of change,. and a lot of support but no more effort than I was using to stay drunk.
I turned it around - you can too - It's not beyond you, at all
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