You name it and I resent her for it. She is a very very controlling, abusive person. I lived most of my life either fearing her or begging for affection. She has not changed except that I'm grown and in my own home. I am still scared to stand up to her so I try to keep contact with her to a bare minimum. It's a looong story but that's part of it. I could go on forever but ya get the drift. I don't like to feel this way about her but it is a part of my recovery that I am having a hard time working through and letting go of.