well I relapsed and went crazy. I went to my house on sunday and my wife called the cops on me and I spent the night in jail then I went back to my house to sleep it off and she called the cops on me again and I spent 8 hours in the mental unit of the hospital. I am pretty sure I have ruined any chances of my wife taking me back and that is hard to except. I am starting over and I hope that my life will get better it is just hard to see that right now. She was my everything and I am less of a person without her.