onthebrigj-
I know what you mean. I had a vacation home planned since I got sober and now it is a month away... I have now been sober almost 8 months and I am feeling MORE ready... but not really ready. It will be a real test for me.
However, at only two days in.... don't get too worried about it. Worry about the "now". Staying in the "now" helps me a lot.
Jess