Originally Posted by
Fallion 
Let us hope I find a reason to stop.
Posting here doesn't seem to have helped much so far but thanks for the replies everyone!
Nothing will help until you let it. Not trying to be harsh or judgmental, but you won't stop drinking or smoking until you want to, simple as that. No one can "scare" you into it either, you'll read stories here of those who have literally drunk themselves to death with the knowledge that it was going to happen.
I hope you do find a reason as well. Sober life is better than drunk life. I am only one person/opinion, but I can absolutely tell you that i'd never, ever plan on going back to that life again.