If only I did feel shame, or ever got a hangover, or had some kind of negative effect to drinking excessively. Any of those would probably help motivate me.
Sadly I am exceptional at my job. Even though I walk home for lunch cause I live 5 minutes away and have at least 4 beers everytime. Being a high functioning alcoholic is a real pain in the ass.
Health problems do worry me, which is why I get blood tests every 6 months. The last one I had the doctor literally said "if all my patients were as healthy as you I would be out of a job" which really didn't help.
I guess there is nothing much other than for me to want to do it for the sake of doing it.. which seems a pretty far fetched idea. I may very well go check out some local AA meetings and possibly speak to a therapist just to see if either of those can nudge me in the right direction.