Hi. I went through a bit of a similar situation in my drying out period and in AA. It was very tough love back then and my BS was worn out. I pouted, complained how bad life was, and was finally told to Man up as the world wasn't going to change for me. Shocked I started to fulfill some of my duties besides not drinking and stopped using drinking as a crutch. I found work was a good therapy as it got me away from self thinking thoughts. It takes time and I wanted what I wanted NOW but it doesn't work that way. Work and self discipline works for the long term. BE WELL