Everyone, this is a really crappy day for me, but you are helping me to work through it. Holy moley, can I get to a 6 AM (or maybe 7 AM, I will need to check) meeting tomorrow? They had BETTER have coffee at that hour, haha!
Thanks for the very simple suggestion to lighten up. I am trying, believe me I am, but I am so f*cking ashamed of myself and how bad I have gotten. So I had six years' sobriety...none of that matters now. I'm worse than I ever was before, and now I have a family. At least back then, the only person affected by my actions was myself.
As of right now, I have four hours without drinking. I guess that is a start, isn't it? One minute at a time is the best I can do right now.
(((HUGS)))