Drunkandalone, I did the same thing in order to quit. I checked myself into treatment, and I had co-workers saying how expensive it would be. I replied that I could be dead instead. I took treatment as a matter of life and death. I have been clean and sober for almost 14 months now.
Now that you are committed to taking care of yourself, can I suggest you change your name to SoberandHappy ? Just a thought for a new life!