...and then I drank last night and tonight. I felt worse and more depressed each day I was de-toxing, i got to night 5 and swore that i would not do it to myself again the next night (not drink)
I am so surprised that I got through 5 nights (I haven't done that all year, or for maybe the last 2 years?!)
I just thought i'd feel better after 5 nights, I know that sounds awfully impatient (& I know that I am) I thought on that 5th night 'there is nothing anyone could say or do that would make me continue with this' (staying sober) so here i am now drinking....but not happy of course.
I'm stubborn, but impatient so yeah I want to see 'something positive' in being sober for 5 nights and when I didn't I gave up. I'm stubborn so that means this isn't me giving up for good. I'm here, I'm reading & I will dust myself off and start again.
Thanks for reading.
