Originally Posted by
countingdays 
I feel so broken
counting days, welcome to SR - it takes usually more than a swing or two.
your comment, is actually OK. admitting that you are broken, and that you are in a spot of accepting help, changing your life, taking advice, and stopping your addictive habits requires you to surrender, and that's good.
continuing to grapple with booze is like a pillow fight, but one of you has rocks in their pillowcase (i won't tell you which one
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you can do this, thanks for showing up and posting...