I take my power back.
I am sure you have seen the movie, Dirty Dancing and the one line I just love.........
"Nobody puts baby in the corner."
This is all about you now, You and you alone are responsible for your own well being.
You sound like a very sweet and sincere person, you just have to believe in yourself here, take a huge leap of faith and go and reintroduce yourself to the world. There are thousands and thousands of available men who would be honored to have a committed partner. ( I'm not saying do this today, just a future option , this is not the end , it's a new chapter )