Hi Lorelei, You know kiddo, you are such a lovely, caring person! I always look forward to your posts, sweet smile too. Did something trigger the cutting or self harm? Are you overwhelmed about an event? How can we help you? We need you as much as you need us. And I mean that! Keep close today, read, post and read some more. Do something for me, will you? Go for a walk or do so light exercise, BEFORE you take that drink, let's start with that and then go forward, ok? Need you too! tF