Originally Posted by
rowd44 
After over 3 decades of drinking I just had an insight one day after a bad bender, saw it for what it was and threw in the towel for good. That was over 5 years ago. No program needed but I was just done with it at that point
Back to Square one - did you consider yourself addicted to alcohol or just a person who drank lots and have a bad bender?
I was addicted, In the distant past 20 years prior I tried everything and failed to quit. I don't think I really wanted to quit at that point though. By the time I finally quit I was buying vodka by the case and drinking it out of the large sports drink cups, any mixer would do at that point.
The withdrawals were getting horrible, I no longer could find pleasure in it, only pain. I had some kind of shift in thinking, really hard to explain. It was like the pain/pleasure aspect of it shifted to all pain. I just no longer wanted to do it.