Hi Story, I lost my happy when I found out my two beautiful young girls, were addicts. I cried rivers. I couldn't eat, couldn't parent my son. It was/still is awful, painful and never ending. I think what Lizwig said is excellent! I started journaling right away. That was so helpful. I write things down like this wasn't my fault or I AM a good mom, etc. that helped me. I smile a little more now, my tears, some are happy. I read SR every day and post if I think it will help someone as SR has helped me. Take care of yourself, eat well, love your family and give yourself a big gentle hug. TF