Cowfriend, I get you. Don't be embarrassed or hurt. I don't know how to express to you how much your posts have helped me. Addiction is a very serious subject, I know but a little humor goes a long, long way in this world. Your persona is humorous yes, but a very poignant and powerful portrait of a real person struggling to find their way. I cannot begin to tell you how much you have touched me. You've helped me see that life is worth living even in the dark times. Because you, who've been struggling mightily and openly, have had the guts and dignity to post often and truly to your fellow creatures who are struggling also. I have been laughing and crying with you. Please keep fighting the fight and stay with us.