he just had bladder surgery and is 78 years old. i have manipulated him in the past so now he said i have plenty help yourself when you feel bad.....he doesn'tknow i am a addict and that is my drug of choice. thank you for inspiriing words. i went and got a candy bar and a coke and am getting my mind off of it. how long do you thing this ickiniss will last. i verily manage without the drug... i have no energy. my husbandy died of alcholism. he relasped one to many times and he died. and then my sister died and well here i am now thinking i found the magic pill to make me happy. boy was i wrong. thanks for your response. feeeling very alone now.....