I've posted and have not seen a response so perhaps shortening it will help.
Hypocritical, what happened between this:
I love God and my wife (she drinks some) too much to continue being drunk all the time.
We are serious about quitting and plan to be successful. I'm sure it won't be a walk in the park as I have been doing this for the past 20+ years. I hope to gain fellowship, support and knowledge from this board. I checked out a few and yours seemed a good fit.
and this
I went and bought a six-pack of Bud Light (it's 3.2% here) and all was perfect in the world. I drank the six over the next few hours, made a fantastic dinner of spagetti, watched some tv and went to bed. Woke up this morning feeling as good as i did previous days. I don't feel guilty, don't feel like I gave up sobriety and don't feel the need to drink. I don't want to go back to drinking everyday and still expect to remain sober.
It's odd seeing those two put together isn't it? The difference is one of those is the real you. It's up to you to decide which.