Welcome back Kris
I think, in a sense, what we've done before doesn't matter nearly as much as what we do now.
I had 15 years pfaffing about, dabbling in recovery - then I made the leap, for good.
It's the latter bit that counts
A good support group here is a good start - but if you know you need more than SR, I guess now's the time to start thinking what that 'more' might look like?
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