Originally Posted by
lessgravity 
I suppose you could say I was/am using AVRT, though picking up the drink again belies that.
I've tried AA.
Never been to a counselor.
In a way it feels like that first drink, after 30+ days, flipped a switch in my head, you know?
That's exactly the problem - the fist drink does flip a switch. Which in turn reinforces the importance of having a sobriety plan that works for you to keep from picking up the first drink
So either you are not following your plan vigilantly enough, or the plan/method you are using isn't suitable. I am not judging you on either ground, but to troubleshoot what is happening you need to look at it logically. Those would be the 2 places I would concentrate my efforts if I were in your situation.