Originally Posted by
ScottFromWI 
Less - if I might be so bold, perhaps things aren't as complicated as they might seem. Maybe you should start with the obvious - like which recovery methods you are using and whether or not they are working. Are you still practicing AVRT? Have you ever tried NA or AA? Have you seen a alcohol/drug counselor or a mental health professional?
It's very easy to overthink this.
I suppose you could say I was/am using AVRT, though picking up the drink again belies that.
I've tried AA.
Never been to a counselor.
In a way it feels like that first drink, after 30+ days, flipped a switch in my head, you know?