Lonely
It is day 4 , I am finding it extremely difficult, I have gone to AA meetings in the past, but always feel like I don't fit in. I am a newly single woman who doesn't have any friends whatsoever so this it a very lonely time in my life. I have had a lot of rejection in my life, some of it deserved but not all . I have reached out to woman I know but always seem to be faced with rejection. I am a very friendly outgoing person and most don't even know about my drinking problem. I spent time in rehab as well , didn't seem to fit in there either. I realized that the rejection maybe what has driven the alcoholism all of my life. I stay home drink alone and don't have to deal with the emotions. I am of mixed race , very attractive so I am told and extremely fix. I just don't understand why I am having such a difficult time connecting with people.