Hi Orieme. I started this journey on August 1. Got to day 15 and had a freak out moment and drove straight to the store for two bottles of wine and made myself sick. Got to day 3 again and had another bottle of wine to prove to myself that I could drink without getting sick. Stupid logic, I know.
But, today is 32 straight days! After some reflection, I realized that despite my vigil on SR, I had been isolating myself in real life. I had also managed to avoid any life-related stresses so when the first stress came, I wasn't prepared and instead went blindly for the bottle. I also had to reassess the big picture of how badly alcohol has been negatively affecting my mind, body, and spirit for too many years.
You can learn from this. Try to identify what you were feeling when you decided to drink and what you can do differently next time to get through that moment. Sending you some happy strength vibes!