Thanks for the support as always..feel like a broken record. My dad is allergic to cats and is "old school" so he is just like..."it's a cat, whatever" went to all my classes today...picked up my paycheck and yeah, bought a bottle, a small one, then went back for another small one...but done after tonight...have to be....class at 8 am, and I did talk to the school, no refunds and will be blocked from further grants/loans as this is not the first time I have messed up...I started at 18...I'm 40 now...so, going to make myself sleep so I don't drink this bottle and go to class in AM and be done..I was, as I said, feeling so good.....don't know why I am having such a hard time now.....was in double digits of being sober, now it seems like crack??? Thanks again.....trying, don't know what the heck is wrong with me???