Kza, lets keep this positive, shall we? There's an abundance of negativity in the world, so I think those bases are covered
13, you can do this! If I had a dollar for each time I drank "at" my partner, I'd be rich! Still drunk, but rich. If you focus on being the best, sober, strongest you there's a good chance your so will notice and follow suit in some way. When I sobered up I thought my relationship was doomed. But it improved and we got closer almost despite ourselves. Give it time, see what happens.
Good thoughts headed your way