Hi, Undies)
Qiuick check in from me for now.
Yes, it's my 11 months milestone today, just hard to believe. And it's absolutely amazing - the power of "one day at a time").
I am feeling somewhat better today. I think that this nasty voice somewhere in the background that keeps bugging me and telling that "I am a loser, fry drunk, helpless, doomed for failure and miserable life, pathetic, ridiculous, unworthy, etc., etc." is just a part of AV. One of its multiple personalities and masks it wears to get to me and achieve its one and ultimate goal - to get a drink and ruin my life.
I started today with a long meditation, and as negative thought keep popping up I am pushing them away and let go, not even starting my usual "rationalization and justificatory" conversations with it. It's the beast and it acknowledges nothing but raw power.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend.
I'll see you all later)