kys - you're thinking too much. remember, all this complex thinking is what got you in this situation to begin with. it's not deep, it doesn't require tons of introspective mumbo jumbo. it's a decision today, not to drink and insert the support system that is required to achieve that goal.
every time i go, "why is this the way it is..." "why am i feeling...". meh. doesn't help at all.
good luck, we are rooting for you!
