Hi Anon - it's great to have you here with us.
I once drank exactly as you described. It was decades ago. Over the years I graduated from weekend drinking to every day drinking. Eventually it took over my life and I was completely dependent on it. I swore I'd never allow that to happen - but I had no control once it was in my system. You're wise to be looking at what it's doing to your life. You see the danger signs and you know where this is headed if you don't stop. I'm glad you came here for support. Please keep reading & posting here. You can get free of it.