Sounds like you understand the issues. Four months is good time. We never stop learning, so get the most out of this experience. talking to others at AA would help if that has been good for you in the past.
I know i weave in and out f being what i have come to call "centred" in my recovery. Being centred is the safest place, but for various reasons we find our selves in a different place. It helps to know what can get us more centred.