Hi Croissant, Yes I know your absolutely right but it was so overwhelming its the first time since I quit I actually just didn't give a hoot about anything but having that quick fix from a bottle.
I think I had better do some AVRT reading ASAP...... It really scared me for a bit there and I still feel very cross now as its early days I just don't feel I have enough tools in the toolbox yet to deal with some things and obviously losing my temper is something I must guard against.