Hi again Kelly, I just noticed you are pretty new here.
I am going to strongly recommend that you start going to Al-Anon if you aren't already. It is a great place to meet people who understand what you are going through and to get some great tools for getting your own life back to someplace sane and even happy again. I can honestly say it was a life saver for me.
One thing I learned here and at Al-Anon is the 3 Cs.
I didn't cause it.
I can't control it.
I can't cure it.
This applies to their recovery as well as their drinking. It was a huge load off my shoulders when I put down all the baggage I was carrying trying to manage my AW's life. It finally gave me a chance to look at my life and how I could improve it.
Keep coming back as there is huge amounts of wisdom on this site.
Your friend,