I somehow feel more helpless than when I started posting tonight.
I know I am not going to like the answers I get, I know there is truth in the words too.
In the end I am hearing more and more about stories where you just walk away.
I do not want to face that reality.
I finally found the man that can cause me to look in a mirror and see myself truly as the beautiful, amazing person that he sees.
He would tell me every day how beautiful I am, how I make him a better person... But now I have to ask where did that all go?
If I make him a better person then how are we in this mess?
I can not imagine ever wanting anyone else in my life than him.
We are a family and family doesn't give up.
As much as I am hurting right now I can not handle the feeling of losing him.