True story about it getting worse. Your sober life will suck if you want it to...or you can do what you need to do to make it...well...whatever you want it to be. If you want it to be fun and adventerous make it so. I think the key for many of us (especially me right now) I KNOW I'm not strong enough to take on certain life triggers. I am not willing to lose my sobriety. So for NOW, I am being a little more isolated and quiet than I want to be. Frankly I think you are worrying about something that you can't fathom right now. Wait until you get some time behind you....then take on this issue. For now work on getting STAYING sober. That is the first order of business.