Riky, you are moving in the right direction. I love your posts. You are always so encouraging. You can do it...keep developing that plan of yours for the weekend and stick with it. You payed bills, you let your daughter go enjoy without making an issue, these are not always easy choices, but good ones. now distract yourself , get out of your head, do whatever you need to, whatever you can. You'll be happy and proud on the other side. Thinking of you.