Thank you all. It's good to be back. The "at the end of my drinking I felt like I was juggling jellyfish" comment hit home.
When I started this journey it always struck me as strange so many people said they battled for years and years before finally pulling the plug - or plugging the jug.
Now I know why. I trust I'm not alone as a drunk who really, really didn't want to let go of the booze. We had a lot of good times together. Those good times have transformed into long, vicious cycles of trying to not feel awful after a binge. I have tried being a drinker for 12 years and have been incredibly successful.
I know I can drink... and drink...
Not drinking will be a trying challenge... but my body and mind have told me it's time to move on to sobriety. Thanks again for all of the support.