He called. I melted and told him how much I care about him. He asked me to come over to his parents to hang out tonight. I told him no. (which i'm proud of) He knows i'm moving this weekend and decided that he will help me on Sunday. I know he's going to jail next week for violating probation. (he's choosing to do his full time) I know i'm addicted to him. I know the pain of being without him is crazy. I know i'm losing my mind.. but like others said the hope he will get better haunts me. I know I have codependency. I know that I have to work the steps to get better myself before i'll have the strength to sever the relationship between me and him if need be. At this point he knows he'll be moving into a sober house when he's done with jail. He knows that he cannot live with me, and knows that I don't want to be with him when he's using. He doesn't think I will divorce him (because i'm not ready.) Thanks for listening.