Welcome Incy. These forums are a positive start to recovery. Another may be AA as it has worked for millions over the last 77 years. One highly desirable need is to be honest with ourselves and not picking up the first drink. Being honest, especially the first XXX months is like a mind field with inner beasts suggesting many untrue things about our drinking. Such as It wasn't that bad, you can stop tomorrow, just one, I need one, I need to unwind, I deserve one and on and on. BE WELL