Thank you for sharing.
I'm now at day 28 sober and have some niggling health concerns also. Only a doctor can help you on that one and I wish you all the best on the health front. It's natural to think the worst and add your health worries to the "I'm a bad Mother list". I still feel like I'm going to be struck down as a punishment for wasting what blessings I have been give in life.
No one sets out to be on this path, so please don't feel alone. You can only make the best choices once you see with honest eyes the choices made in the past that haven't worked and commit to changing what your future looks like.
I wish you all the best in the first days and weeks and a brighter future with good health. You have taken positive steps!